Posts Tagged ‘goals’

Something for the weekend.

Tuesday, November 17th, 2009

I did a little experiment last week to confirm what I thought was the reason I’m putting the weight back on.

Daily Weigh InIt’s the weekend that is causing me all the hassle.

It seems that I’ve fallen back into an old trap.  The graph above is a daily weigh in throughout last week.  It’s pretty obvious to see that as I go through the week I do well and lose weight and then it gets to Friday night and I start piling it back on again.

Now all of that can’t be fat, I find it difficult to believe you can lose 2kg in fat and then put it all back on again in a week.  However, it does bring home the fact that I haven’t been as disciplined as I should have been during the weekends.

Now that I’ve confirmed this I’ll be making a special effort not to make the same mistake again.  It’s going to be tough since it’s the run up to Christmas but I really want to see the year out at 100kg.

Improving the Shed – PHASE 2

Monday, June 29th, 2009

So after a successful Phase 1 it’s time to move into Phase 2.

Phase 1 was all about losing weight.  Just dropping as much as I could.  I didn’t really care much about the finer points of losing weight, such as whether it was muscle or fat and I generally didn’t think much further on nutrition than just cutting calories.  It worked for me but I’m still not happy with my body.  It’s a lot fitter and a lot more mobile but it doesn’t quite look good enough in a suit yet.  Some people may say I’m just being vain but I’m not hurting anyone and after-all what’s wrong with wanting to look good.

So Phase 2 is more about body composition.  Still losing weight overall but more losing fat and gaining muscle.  Since I’ll be trying to gain muscle the scales aren’t the best choice of tool to keep track of how I’m doing.  That’s why I’m switching to a skin-fold measurement.  The skin fold measurement, or pinch test, is that old-skool thing that was usually the source of embarrassment during school PE lessons.  It involves  gathering a fold of skin just above the right hip and measuring it, using calipers, to see how thick it is.  The theory is that from the measurement you can then get an idea of how much total body fat you have.  Since one of the areas I most want to lose fat from is my abdomen the skin-fold measurement is pretty much ideal for me.

As well as the skin-fold measurement I’ll be measuring the circumference of various body parts.  Biceps, chest, waist, hips, thighs and calves will all come under scrutiny but I’ll be paying most attention to skin-fold, weight, how I look in a mirror and how I feel generally.

Over on the progress page there’s 3 graphs.  They’re published straight from google docs so some people in a corporate environment may have trouble seeing them.  The top one covers all that I mentioned above, starting at a point of 100%,  Hopefully you should see arms, thighs and calves increase, chest stay about the same and hips and waist measurements go down.  Most importantly though the skin-fold graph needs to go down.  As I said, that’s my focus.  Along with that though I’ll keep an eye on my overall weight.  That will go down too.  For those who can’t view the graphs, don’t worry, I’ll post pictures etc in the main blog thread as I go along.

So my starting point is a skin fold measurement of 32mm.  That puts me around the 25% body fat mark.  My aim is to get my body fat percentage down to an ideal level, around 15%.  That means I need to achieve a skin-fold measurement of 13mm.  That means I have 26 weeks, starting today, to lose 19mm of fat from my skin-fold.

I have a feeling that this is going to be much more difficult than just losing weight.  There’s already a lot more to think about in terms of nutrition and getting the right balance of carb vs protein vs fat.  Combined with that I’ve switched to a different exercise routine focussed more on weights and resistance training than on CV work.  I think I’m in for a tough time.

Anyway, wish me luck and I hope you keep reading.

Sid.

Weight Loss Tracker – Week 18

Monday, May 11th, 2009

Just a short post.  Nothing really to write home about.  Weight loss is going painfully slow at the minute.  Just 2kg left to shift.  My goal is so close I can smell it!  That’s only 18000 calories worth.  I’m hoping to shift 1kg this week and one next week.

Weight Loss Tracker Week 17 – Getting there.

Tuesday, May 5th, 2009

I nearly forgot to post my weekly update, that’s how busy I am at the minute.  It’s also reflective that my weight loss has taken a bit of a back seat in my mind recently.  I must sort that out.

So, 2.5kg to go.  I need to get back into my routine and I need to crack on with it.  I’m aiming to ditch another kilo this week, although making brownies won’t help, then hopefully I can ditch another kilo the week after and with the right amount of determination I can head to the Lake District the week after and pound some hills to crack the 100kg mark.

It’s so close now I can taste it.

My little mantra.

Friday, April 3rd, 2009

Before you read this post you should know there’s going to be quite a bit of foul language in it.

I’ve had a dirty little secret for a while now.  Very few people know about it but I think it’s time I confess.  It’s become like a little addiction.  I need a hit of it every time I work out.  In fact I don’t think I could work out as hard without it.

I have a little mantra!

I always thought mantras were for suckers.  To be honest knowing that I have one makes me think I’m a sucker too.  it invokes images of people chanting, “I will not be fat, I will not be fat, I will not be fat.  Fat is evil, fat is evil, fat is evil” and various things like that.  But for me my little mantra works and it works well.

So what is it?

“I FUCKING OWN…”

You can change the ending to whatever suits at the time.  When I’ve been attacking the rowing machine to try and get my time for 2000m down under 8 mins all I’ve been repeating in my head is, “I fucking own you rowing machine, I FUCKING own you!”  See, it already sounds sad doesn’t it?  In step class, “I fucking own that step!”  When cycling to work, “I fucking own that bike!”

Generally I FUCKING OWN EVERYTHING!!!!!

That’s obviously a lie but hey if it helps me to reach my goals then a few fibs are OK right?

I don’t know why it works for me so well.  I think it appeals to my arrogant aggressive side.  I usually try to subdue that side of me since it’s not that pleasant but get it working for you in the gym and it’s great.  Channeling a load of aggression in the right direction really helps me.

So far using my little dirty mantra I’ve shaved over 30 seconds off my 2000m rowing time, going from 8mins 34 seconds down to 7mins 56 secs.

So next time you’re struggling with something and you wanna overcome that little obstacle just remember, YOU FUCKING OWN IT!

And when you’ve done owning it check out the t-shirt I’ve just made for myself and get one for yourself.

Sid

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Weight loss tracker week 11 – Only 0.5kg

Monday, March 23rd, 2009

Just the 0.5kg loss, about a pound.  I didn’t have that focussed of a week this week and as well as feeling like I exercised too little I also feel I wasn’t great with my food.  I’m pretty happy with the 0.5kg loss because of those reasons but I’m not happy that I wasn’t focussed.

It means I’ve just slipped off averaging 1kg per week but I’m still ahead of my goals.  The other good thing was I blitzed my 2000m rowing time again.  I took another 5 secs off to get me down to 8m10.2s.  Not bad.  Only 3 people on the gym wall are quicker than me now, but they are quicker by a long long way.

So this next week it’s sock pulling up time.  I’ve got a good week ahead that will challenge what I choose to eat when I’m eating out and out of my routine.  Tonight I’m meeting up with a mate and heading out for dinner and drinks then on Thursday I have lunch and dinner out as well as a weekend away at the Outdoor Show.  I’m determined not to eat badly there since that’s one of my rewards for losing weight!

weight loss tracker week 11

Hypnotherapy – The Second Session – The Control Room

Tuesday, March 17th, 2009

My second session was as interesting as my first but for very different reasons.  Quite a bit, if not all, of hypnotherapy is about visualisation and this was my first foray into that visualisation.

I’m going to skip over my journey into the control room because each time I do trance work I find it to be quite a personal experience.  As your mind relaxes you remember things from the past and find yourself thinking about things that you wouldn’t normally think about.  There’s things I’ve sorted in my own mind, quite unrelated to weight-loss, just in the process of getting into a relaxed state.

Anyway, this session of trance work was focussed on my control room.

The control room is essentially a visual representation of your subconcious mind and the inner workings that control your body.  It might sound weird but most of the control of your body goes on in the subconcious mind.  Breathing is an obvious example where there is both conscious and unconscious control.  Think about it a little more and you’ll soon start to realise that most things, walking, standing up, blinking, yawning, swallowing etc etc are controlled unconsciously.  It’s not magic, the physiological basis for all of these things are pretty well understood, but it does remind you that you’re not in control of your body as much as you think you are.

I digress.  The point is that as you live your life there is very little that your body does that you have full conscious control over, eating is one of them.  If you don’t have conscious control then how do you change your behaviour?  The control room gives you a way of visualisaing the inner working and gives you a fighting chance of changing them.

The first sight I got of my control room was through a large steel door that was embedded in a rock.  I have a precise location in my mind now of where my control room is and I find it pretty easy to get back there is I ever need to fix anything.  My control room is a pretty big place.  There’s a tonne of switches and dials and monitors and displays and instrumentation in there and plenty of things that I have no idea what the hell they are.  The closest I can come to describing it is…take Elrod House, the place they used as one of Blowfeld’s Lairs in the Bond film Diamonds are Forever and the one in the picture, mix it with a nuclear power plant control room, throw in a chair and table set, a big mirror, a massive opaque glass sheet on one wall, some big green plants and a rock formation with water flowing across it’s surface and you’re pretty much there.

The point of me being in my control room was to find the switch, or the dial, or the button that was broken or out of kilter and fix it.  I browsed around and found a few things that I didn’t like the look of.  I’ve fixed most of them now but there’s still more to go.  The one I was looking for at the time was obviously the one that controls my eating.

I found it on a control panel right in the middle of the room.  It looked a little like the image at the top of the post.  It was a simple switch with two read-outs.  As you pushed the button one display increased and one decreased.  The two displays we’re my representation of the control I have around eating and the amount of food I eat.  When I got to the switch my control over eating was pretty much zero and the amount I ate was at a 10.  I flicked the switch and brought them to about 5 each.  There was still something that wasn’t quite right.  I found out what later on in another session but it’s a long story.

While I was in my control room this time I just sat at the table and chilled out a bit.  I had a good old look around too.  I found plenty of things to fix and I found plenty of things that were working very well.

The only other thing we did in there was to go and take  alook in the mirror.  It was a classic visualise you goals kind of exercise.  When I looked in the mirror it wasn’t me who was looking back at me, it was me in a few months when I’d met my goals.  When I first looked in the mirror it was like it was smeared with grease.  I couldn’t get a clear image of what I was going to look like or feel like.  It took a few sessions to get the image crystal clear but I have it in my minds eye now.

After sitting for a little while longer in my control room I left it there and headed back out into the sun of the surrounding area.  I made my way back to where I’d started and Clare roused me from my trance.

All in all this session was fascinating.  I have visited my control room on many occasions since and when I get the chance to do some self-hypnosis it’s one of the places I always check in on, just to make sure things are running smoothly.

Sid.

Weight-Loss Tracker – Week 10

Monday, March 16th, 2009

I had suspected that this morning when I got on the sclaes I’d not be where I wanted to be.  I had been aiming for 105kg or 16.5 stone but yesterday I went o watch the rugby and had a curry afterwards, along with a few pints.

This morning though i was over the moon to see I’d cracked the 16.5stone mark.

weight loss tracker week 10

I’m over the moon.

I now feel like I’m entering that relaxed but efficient stage of this.  I’m not sure if anyone else does this but towards the end of a project or during a rowing challenge or spinning challenge I set myself in the gym there’s a point at which everything just clicks.  You relax into what you’re doing, you know what needs to be done, you’re focussed, there’s no way you’re not going to do what you set out to do and you know that you’re going to finish strong.  That’s where I am right now.

I know that that 100kg mark is mine.  Ther is no doubt in my mind that I’ll acheive it by my birthday.  In fact, if I was to get very cocky I know that I’m going to drop the last 5 kg in 5 weeks.  1kg a week.

I fucking own this!

Weight loss tracker Week 8 – Back on track

Monday, March 2nd, 2009

weight loss tracker week 8

Well, I’m not sure what’s happened but it seems like I’m back on track.  That’s a loss of 3.5kg this week.  Sometimes I wonder what the hell my body is doing.  To lose 3.5kg of fat would meant that this week I had burnt 31500 more calories than I consumed, that’s an extra 4500 per day.  Now that’s not really possible.

I have been cycling to work all week since not only was a feeling all motivated (in a pissed off kind of way) but the car has been out of action anyway but no way will that account for 3.5kg loss.

So that means that my party weekend obviously screwed with my weight in many ways.  I’m not sure it would be water retention since alcohol is a diuretic but it was something.  I might do a bit of reading round that.

Anyway, the push is on.  Next goal is 106kg so that I can go Clay Pigeon Shooting.

Hypnotherapy – The First Session

Wednesday, February 18th, 2009

My first hypnotherapy session was less hypnotherapy and more getting used to Clare, my hypnotherapist, getting used to the surroundings and talking through some of my motivations and how I currently feel about my weight.  In total the session lasted about 90mins with the first 60mins being set aside for a chat and the last 30mins being used for some trance work.

The conversation I had with Clare was an interesting one.  At first the questions were fairly lightweight.  Why are you thinking of losing weight?  Have you got any goals in mind?  Have you tried losing weight before?  Did you succeed or fail and why do you think it turned out as it did.  Then it moved on to some more in depth questions around my attitude to food, whether I snacked a lot, whether I could remember anything from my past that changed my attitude to food, whether there was any patterns to my eating such as always having to finish the food on my plate or eating quickly/slowly.  Finally the questions switched to ones which at first don’t seem to be entirely relevant.  What makes you laugh?  When are you at your happiest?  When are you relaxed?

To be honest that conversation got me thinking a lot.  I think even if the sessions were just me having a chat with Clare that would have done me the world of good.  Normally I don’t chat in-depth to anybody about my weight.  I guess I’m embarrassed in a way.  I often wonder why I find it so difficult to keep my weight under control compared to many other people.

After the conversation it was time for my first bit of trance work.  To call it trance work makes it seem like it’s some sort of mystical event.  In reality it’s not, but I do find it quite strange even now that I’ve had quite a few sessions.  To get into a ‘trance’ involves relaxing both your body and mind to a very deep level.  When I first tried it I found it quick difficult.  I found that I could get to one level of relaxation very easily but to take it to a deeper level, a trance level, took a little more effort.  For anyone who does Yoga or other activities that involve meditation-like activities I think you’ll find it easier.  Most of it is about clearing your mind, realising you’re in a safe place and allowing yourself the time to think about things and focus on thoughts in a much more detailed way.  I still have difficulty with self-hypnosis as still find it difficult to get to this level of relaxation without the help of Clare.

It’s difficult to describe what it feels like to be in this state.  When I’m in that state I find I can hear everything with a clarity that I never usually do but at the same time I don’t realy care for any of it.  You’re not asleep or unconscious or dissociated or any of that.  You are fully aware of everything that is going on around you and you understand that you could react to anything if you choose to.  I also find that while I’m in this state my mind reminds me of a lot of things I’ve forgotten but at the same time it lets me resolve them very quickly.  It’s freaky.  It’s a freaky situation to be in but it’s good.

Because we didn’t have a lot of time for trance work this first bit focussed on confirming that I was ready to lose weight and built up to Clare asking my subconscious mind whether or not it was ready to help me lose weight.  This is where I got a little freaked out.  Clare had said that she would talk to my subconscious mind during the trance work but I’d kind of laughed it of.  I guess that’s the point of relaxing, to allow your conscious mind to take a rest and let your subconscious mind take over for a little while.

I can’t really remember exactly how Clare led up to the question she asked of my unconscious mind but one of the first things she did was get my subconscious mind to make two movements, one to signify a ‘yes’ and one to signify a ‘no’.  It really got me when my right index finger picked itself up for a yes and my right thumb picked itself up for a no.  I know it was me choosing to do it but it wasn’t through the normal route you make decisions.  Once that was done Clare asked if my unconscious mind was ready to help me lose weight.  To my astonishment it said no.  That’s when my conscious mind kicked in and thought, “Well fuck you arsehole!”

From what I remember that’s where we left it.  I was roused from the trance and we had another little chat before I left.  I was pretty annoyed that the answer was no but the wird thing is you know that it’s you answering the question.  It means you do a lot of soul searching, asking yourself if losing weight is really what you want.

I left the therapy room feeling strangely invigorated.  I went back to my desk at work and cracked out some of the best work I’d done for a while.  Clare suggested I didn’t talk about the hypnotherpay for a couple of days so I just let it dwell on my mind a little before chatting to Michelle.

A week after I was back for my second session but I think I’ve waffled on enough for one post.  You can look forward to that and my control room!

Sid.